Attraction - My Dilemma

Have you ever noticed the dance we take with each other when we meet an attractive individual – someone who stimulates our mind, heart, and body? Subtle movements of our eyes, the firing of neurons in a once empty space of mind, and a burning that moves from deep down rising to flush our cheeks. Where does that energy go once it moves out of our bodies? Is it captured by the other or is it freely roaming forever searching, and landing intently only to leave again and find another?

Some call it sparks because that is exactly what attraction feels like, and these sparks ignite fires or fizzle out in the dampness of time. I would love to know how to contain this burning feeling and nourish it keeping it alive in myself and possibly another.

So far though I have only been able to ignite these feelings in others that I quickly want to drown for fear and out of caution that it might take me completely over and I would lose control of the mundane. Most certainly this is a fear of trusting that the other will stop fanning the flame and settle in with what I have to give leaving me suffocating in normalcy. If I let today’s attraction take over what will be the end result? Will I want to run again? Hide and find safety while trapped in my world of constant relationship failure?

This is today’s dilemma.